Urgh... everytime i come home, i'd feel damn happy. Happy to be back in my home, see my family, sleep in my room etc. But after a while, it gets really really wearing. On my nerves! I mean, i understand that all they wanna do is make my stay comfortable and they want me to eat good food and so but why can't they just leave me alone for one second?!?!?! And they keep asking me to eat! And eat! And just to please, i'd eat. Even though i'm freaking full! Sigh, I mean, sometimes i just wanna read a book or watch tv and don't feel like talking or eating but no... they'd have to talk and talk and talk and nag and complain (especially the nagging.. i can't stand the nagging!!!) until i feel like tearing my hair out! So sometimes, i just give one word answers or better yet, don't answer at all, and then mum will complain how come i don't talk to her like her other friends' children. And then i'd feel bad. But yea, i can just imagine telling my mum my escapades and how i'm in a physical relationship with a dude and that i just recently got so high, i couldn't stop dancing and flirting. Imagine what she would say then! Why can't they just understand that i just feel like being anti social once in a while?
So i'd feel like going back to KL as soon as i can. Then, when i reach KL, i'd feel bad for not spending enough time with my family, for not talkng enough to them. But they just irritate me so much at times!!! AARGH!!! Ish... the ups and downs of being home. Forget the last post, man bout feeling good being home. That feeling lasts about maybe a day. Jeebers. I guess i've been living away from home for too long. Living alone too long now that family fawning gets tiring. Either that or maybe it's just me. I'm weird. I yearn for company but at the same time, i wanna be alone. What's wrong with me? I always end up feeling bad and guilty when i leave home and go back to KL.
Anyway, i'll be leaving soon. So just to please em, i'm going to have to go downstairs and.. u guessed it.. eat. How not to get fat?!?!?!?
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