Sunday, June 12, 2005
The things people say and do when they're drunk is not funny. When you're under the influence of alcohol, everything just gets blown out of proportion and a simple statement can send someone flying to the roof with anger. And it's not a good thing when 2 people who already pissed off and irritated with other things, turn on each other. First hand experience, last Saturday. I was pissed off, frustrated and when he did something which under normal circumstances would not even have got my attention, I just blew up. And he blew up at me as well. We exchanged certain words which we shouldn't have. We said things we didn't mean. But thank goodness everything's alrite and we apologised and we're back to where we were. And i now realise that i really......
Friday, June 10, 2005
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Nostalgia...
No boss today! Out sick. So here I was, strolling into the office (actually I was hurrying as I thought I was late) when my cell phone rang and it was my boss informing that she will not be in today and even tomorrow. So for the first half of the day, I finished up everything that was pending and after that... boredom! Nothing to do! Been surfing the net all day when I decided to go into the mmuaustrals2003 group thingy and started reading all the old mails. And whoa... talk about feeling nostalgic!
Suddenly all the feelings of anxiety, excitement, irritation, anger all just came back. I remember how stressful it was at that time. Committee members wanting to jump at each other's throats. The work and effort and time we all put in. The endless emails going back and forth especially when deciding on the hotel. I remember calling Farrah from the meeting to ask her if she would like to fill in the convenor position. The endless arguements about how much we should spend and save on the money that we get. The many many arguements about socials (no, I am NOT going to talk about our dear director). The feelings of suspicion and paranoia that we might be cheated. How Farrah and I had to take 'leave' to attend our Australs functions. And finally when the whole event was going on, how our runners were not 'running' and most of the ex-comm had to do everything by themselves. How we wanted to an australs - matrix style intro which never worked out but was really fun talking about it (how come I got a lame part like the keymaker? He dies so fast in the movie!). Reading more of those mails and URGH... getting invoices and receipts from a particular someone was so difficult... wouldn't that give you reason to suspect that something's up? Anyway, the organization of Australs was great. Put a lot of things in perspective. When you're working in a team, everyone has GOT to pull their weight. And if they don't, the team needs to have the guts to say 'You're fired' as Donald Trump in Apprentice would say. And just because someone is a smooth talker, things that he says doesn't necessarily will get done. It's a lot like being in this company. You need to have the guts to tell someone that they're doing something wrong or they're not performing. Rather than letting it slide and trying to cover up.
I do sometimes miss the old debate days. Going for training, getting scolded by Prabs, finding excuses not to for training coz we didn't want to shouted at by Prabs, supper sessions after training, the tournaments, the feelings of anger and injustice towards adjudicators and debaters alike, the emotional ups and downs of everyone in the team, the songs that we sing, the re-enactment of movie scenes, the silly games we played etc. Everything was just great. One big happy family with its moments of drama here and there. The thing I miss most was the great conversations we had. It may be about something mundane but the wit is always there. And because everyone around was so witty, you gotta be on your toes to come back with a retort or add something to your sentence to make it sound funny and charming. I feel like my brain matter has been reduced ever since I left Voices. The conversations that I have with other people just ain't the same. You dont' have to be witty. You don't have to sound really smart. Most of the time, you're the smartest person within that group anyway and your normal words will be enough.
That's why I think it's good for me to join the consulting world. At least it'd force me to be on my toes and to keep my wit sharp. After all, I'd have to talk to people and have to sound really smart :) Also, I will be subscribing to some kind of magazine. Most probably Time. Economist is much better with the data and information but it just looks so boring! At least i know i'll read Time. I've also started reading stuff online. I want to get back into the mode i was in during debate days!
Sigh... sometimes being in the corporate world can render oneself stupid...
Suddenly all the feelings of anxiety, excitement, irritation, anger all just came back. I remember how stressful it was at that time. Committee members wanting to jump at each other's throats. The work and effort and time we all put in. The endless emails going back and forth especially when deciding on the hotel. I remember calling Farrah from the meeting to ask her if she would like to fill in the convenor position. The endless arguements about how much we should spend and save on the money that we get. The many many arguements about socials (no, I am NOT going to talk about our dear director). The feelings of suspicion and paranoia that we might be cheated. How Farrah and I had to take 'leave' to attend our Australs functions. And finally when the whole event was going on, how our runners were not 'running' and most of the ex-comm had to do everything by themselves. How we wanted to an australs - matrix style intro which never worked out but was really fun talking about it (how come I got a lame part like the keymaker? He dies so fast in the movie!). Reading more of those mails and URGH... getting invoices and receipts from a particular someone was so difficult... wouldn't that give you reason to suspect that something's up? Anyway, the organization of Australs was great. Put a lot of things in perspective. When you're working in a team, everyone has GOT to pull their weight. And if they don't, the team needs to have the guts to say 'You're fired' as Donald Trump in Apprentice would say. And just because someone is a smooth talker, things that he says doesn't necessarily will get done. It's a lot like being in this company. You need to have the guts to tell someone that they're doing something wrong or they're not performing. Rather than letting it slide and trying to cover up.
I do sometimes miss the old debate days. Going for training, getting scolded by Prabs, finding excuses not to for training coz we didn't want to shouted at by Prabs, supper sessions after training, the tournaments, the feelings of anger and injustice towards adjudicators and debaters alike, the emotional ups and downs of everyone in the team, the songs that we sing, the re-enactment of movie scenes, the silly games we played etc. Everything was just great. One big happy family with its moments of drama here and there. The thing I miss most was the great conversations we had. It may be about something mundane but the wit is always there. And because everyone around was so witty, you gotta be on your toes to come back with a retort or add something to your sentence to make it sound funny and charming. I feel like my brain matter has been reduced ever since I left Voices. The conversations that I have with other people just ain't the same. You dont' have to be witty. You don't have to sound really smart. Most of the time, you're the smartest person within that group anyway and your normal words will be enough.
That's why I think it's good for me to join the consulting world. At least it'd force me to be on my toes and to keep my wit sharp. After all, I'd have to talk to people and have to sound really smart :) Also, I will be subscribing to some kind of magazine. Most probably Time. Economist is much better with the data and information but it just looks so boring! At least i know i'll read Time. I've also started reading stuff online. I want to get back into the mode i was in during debate days!
Sigh... sometimes being in the corporate world can render oneself stupid...
Monday, May 30, 2005
Tortured hearts and souls. That seems to be the theme over the past weekend. Jilted lovers who can't get over their love. Blogging about their pain to the world. Watching a movie about relationships, emotions and needs. Sigh... so who said love is enough to keep us alive? What about the possibility of falling OUT of love? If you can fall IN, you can always climb back out. And like I've once quoted on a previous post from a movie:
If you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking.
Chatting about that movie with someone who relates to it was so enlightening. Prior to that, I've only watched it with V who can be as shallow as a teaspoon at times. And he didnt' like the movie. I found it so profound and he didn't feel a thing. Differences in opinions...
Sometimes I miss having argumental conversations about stuff debates are about. Politics, environment, culture etc. I mean, the end of my university life revolved so much around debates. You're surrounded by smart people (some of them, anyway) and the conversations that go on force you into a situation where you HAVE to read and keep up. If not, you just end up sounding really stupid AND feeling stupid. I miss having someone to 'debate' with or at least bounce off ideas and arguments and rebutting one's opinions. Like I said before, teaspoon. Okay okay... not so bad. I'm just being biased and judgemental. We DO talk about stuff. And when we talk about these kind of things, we end up fighting. Our opinions are just so different. And work just takes up so much time. Stuff we talk about revolves around work so much. It's annoying at times. I think 80% of our conversation is about work issues or people at work. The other 20% would be about AOB - any other business. I don't know how this change in jobs will affect us. As it is, now that we're on different timing but still in the same company, there's kind of a strain on our relationship. We don't have time to see each other except on weekends. And we need weekends to see our friends too. So what now? I think it's been about 2 weeks since I last spent time with him. Some people might not think that's a long period of time but hey, when you're working in the same company and living in the same vincinity, that's long.
If you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking.
Chatting about that movie with someone who relates to it was so enlightening. Prior to that, I've only watched it with V who can be as shallow as a teaspoon at times. And he didnt' like the movie. I found it so profound and he didn't feel a thing. Differences in opinions...
Sometimes I miss having argumental conversations about stuff debates are about. Politics, environment, culture etc. I mean, the end of my university life revolved so much around debates. You're surrounded by smart people (some of them, anyway) and the conversations that go on force you into a situation where you HAVE to read and keep up. If not, you just end up sounding really stupid AND feeling stupid. I miss having someone to 'debate' with or at least bounce off ideas and arguments and rebutting one's opinions. Like I said before, teaspoon. Okay okay... not so bad. I'm just being biased and judgemental. We DO talk about stuff. And when we talk about these kind of things, we end up fighting. Our opinions are just so different. And work just takes up so much time. Stuff we talk about revolves around work so much. It's annoying at times. I think 80% of our conversation is about work issues or people at work. The other 20% would be about AOB - any other business. I don't know how this change in jobs will affect us. As it is, now that we're on different timing but still in the same company, there's kind of a strain on our relationship. We don't have time to see each other except on weekends. And we need weekends to see our friends too. So what now? I think it's been about 2 weeks since I last spent time with him. Some people might not think that's a long period of time but hey, when you're working in the same company and living in the same vincinity, that's long.
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Imagination & fantasies...
Was at work till really late last night. If you ask me what I was doing, I really can't tell you. I just found out some feedback on me and being professional last night and I'm really annoyed. Not at the person who gave the feedback but at the person whom caused this whole thing in the first place. SHE was the one who started to talk to me about the issue and yes, I should brought her outside but it just didn't cross my mind. And she was happily talking about it and asking me questions. Damn. I feel so irritated! Anyway, nothing I can do... just take it in good stride and learn from it.
On another note, as I was in the office late, my mind just started wandering and I wasn't really concentrating on my work. Was just thinking of my move to another company, how it would be like, will I move up the corporate ladder there etc. Being in the consulting world, I suppose, would give me a better chance of moving up. And having that company in my resume would DEFINITELY help. At least according to a lot of people I've spoken to. So anyway, as usual, I started to think of how things might be in the future... and this is the picture that came to mind:
I'm decked out in a top notch suit, with a laptop bag strung across one shoulder, a trendy handphone in one hand, fashionable glasses perched atop my head, sipping latte at a hip sidewalk cafe and organising my meetings on my Personal Digital Assistant.
How's that for a great mental picture of how I'd like to be? Let's hope things work out and that picture will no longer just be in my head! I'm such a typical yuppie. I DO want the latest handphone model. I DO want a cool laptop. I DO want an iPod mini. I DO want trendy clothes and high class power suits and shoes. I DO want to drive a nice car. I DO want to live in a nice house or posh condo where you need to register the names of your visitors before the guards will let them in. On top of that, I want my close friends around me. I want my darling to be there next to me. I want my family to be proud of me.
Think I can have all of the above? Why not work for it?
P. S. I really do want an iPod mini. Was surfing the net last night and it's so cool!!! Anyone care to donate about RM 999 to me and my iPod cause?
On another note, as I was in the office late, my mind just started wandering and I wasn't really concentrating on my work. Was just thinking of my move to another company, how it would be like, will I move up the corporate ladder there etc. Being in the consulting world, I suppose, would give me a better chance of moving up. And having that company in my resume would DEFINITELY help. At least according to a lot of people I've spoken to. So anyway, as usual, I started to think of how things might be in the future... and this is the picture that came to mind:
I'm decked out in a top notch suit, with a laptop bag strung across one shoulder, a trendy handphone in one hand, fashionable glasses perched atop my head, sipping latte at a hip sidewalk cafe and organising my meetings on my Personal Digital Assistant.
How's that for a great mental picture of how I'd like to be? Let's hope things work out and that picture will no longer just be in my head! I'm such a typical yuppie. I DO want the latest handphone model. I DO want a cool laptop. I DO want an iPod mini. I DO want trendy clothes and high class power suits and shoes. I DO want to drive a nice car. I DO want to live in a nice house or posh condo where you need to register the names of your visitors before the guards will let them in. On top of that, I want my close friends around me. I want my darling to be there next to me. I want my family to be proud of me.
Think I can have all of the above? Why not work for it?
P. S. I really do want an iPod mini. Was surfing the net last night and it's so cool!!! Anyone care to donate about RM 999 to me and my iPod cause?
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Just when I thought everything was fine and dandy and I'm going to be a PA for a while. Looks like things can change with just one phone call. And that call came last week, on a Friday. Totally unexpected. Totally off my radar screen. Now... time for change again. From one company with 4 letters to another with 4 letters as well.
Thank goodness my boss is so supportive. She was the one who helped me make my decision. Imagine going to your new boss and telling her that you've been offered another job. And imagine your boss helping you sketch out your goals and what you want to achieve. Clearer career path to achieve my goals. That's where I'm headed for.
Everyone is going to be so shocked. Apparently I set the record. The fastest to leave after promotion :) Got to leave in good terms though. And that's where my boss is going to help me too. Design an exit strategy where I will be on good terms with everyone and so that I can always say I've got contacts here. Got to build my network too! After all, that's what consulting is about. How many people you know and can influence. And how fat my address book is.
Anyway, if I don't like it, I can always turn to becoming a PA since I've got the experience :)
Thank goodness my boss is so supportive. She was the one who helped me make my decision. Imagine going to your new boss and telling her that you've been offered another job. And imagine your boss helping you sketch out your goals and what you want to achieve. Clearer career path to achieve my goals. That's where I'm headed for.
Everyone is going to be so shocked. Apparently I set the record. The fastest to leave after promotion :) Got to leave in good terms though. And that's where my boss is going to help me too. Design an exit strategy where I will be on good terms with everyone and so that I can always say I've got contacts here. Got to build my network too! After all, that's what consulting is about. How many people you know and can influence. And how fat my address book is.
Anyway, if I don't like it, I can always turn to becoming a PA since I've got the experience :)
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Sleepy...
It's Friday morning... the weather is just so perfect for sleeping. It's been drizzly, cloudy and I can just imagine myself under the blanket snoozing away. Either that or reading a book then snoozing away. But no.... where am i? At work. And I'm just too lazy to start off anything yet. Waiting for my boss to go to a meeting at 11 am so that I can eat my breakfast and read a magazine or something. Talk about loafing off!!!
Well, I've shifted into my new place. The place is really nice. The whole apartment block has a very cosy homey feeling to it coz it's very green. And it's next to a hill with monkeys! Can you believe it... monkeys in the middle of a towney area! Housemates are pretty cool too. But my room is still in such a mess!!! Haven't got a cupboard yet... so my clothes are still in bags. Don't know where to put my dvds... got too much of them. Don't know where to put my books... got a fair amount of them. But at least half of my room looks decent. The half where i've set up my computer and bed. Oh well, going to IKEA this evening (if i can get off early) to get my cupboard and whatever else i think is necessary (and since we're talking about me, i might end up buying the whole store!).
Another thing i'm looking forward to is hearing from KPMG. Not going to say much about it yet but let's just hope and pray that i'm accepted. And that what they will offer me is substantial enough for me to accept. We'll see...
My god-son is one month old!!! And when i go back next weekend he's going to be one and half months old. Cool. Time flies doens't it? Just felt like it was last week when my friend texted me to tell me that she's in labour.
On another note, Tubs and Annie are flying high on their trip. I'm so envious. I could have been there with them now. But then so many things happened prior to this trip that I just couldn't drop everything and went off. I put a curse on committments. Especially job committments. How nice if I could just drop everything and disappear for a whole month. A whole month of travelling and relaxing and eating. Mmmm... sounds really good.
I need a vacation!!! I know i just got back from one about a month ago but i need another one now!!! Nothing fancy.. maybe just a weekend getaway with a few friends... maybe a steamboat dinner somewhere cooling... Ish... Somebody plan something please!!! I would plan something if I had time and if I were the type to plan something.
Whoops, boss's visitor is just about to leave. Time to end this post. I think I've done enough whining anyway... Back to work... feeling really drowsy... and my nose is running / blocked. What a week.
Well, I've shifted into my new place. The place is really nice. The whole apartment block has a very cosy homey feeling to it coz it's very green. And it's next to a hill with monkeys! Can you believe it... monkeys in the middle of a towney area! Housemates are pretty cool too. But my room is still in such a mess!!! Haven't got a cupboard yet... so my clothes are still in bags. Don't know where to put my dvds... got too much of them. Don't know where to put my books... got a fair amount of them. But at least half of my room looks decent. The half where i've set up my computer and bed. Oh well, going to IKEA this evening (if i can get off early) to get my cupboard and whatever else i think is necessary (and since we're talking about me, i might end up buying the whole store!).
Another thing i'm looking forward to is hearing from KPMG. Not going to say much about it yet but let's just hope and pray that i'm accepted. And that what they will offer me is substantial enough for me to accept. We'll see...
My god-son is one month old!!! And when i go back next weekend he's going to be one and half months old. Cool. Time flies doens't it? Just felt like it was last week when my friend texted me to tell me that she's in labour.
On another note, Tubs and Annie are flying high on their trip. I'm so envious. I could have been there with them now. But then so many things happened prior to this trip that I just couldn't drop everything and went off. I put a curse on committments. Especially job committments. How nice if I could just drop everything and disappear for a whole month. A whole month of travelling and relaxing and eating. Mmmm... sounds really good.
I need a vacation!!! I know i just got back from one about a month ago but i need another one now!!! Nothing fancy.. maybe just a weekend getaway with a few friends... maybe a steamboat dinner somewhere cooling... Ish... Somebody plan something please!!! I would plan something if I had time and if I were the type to plan something.
Whoops, boss's visitor is just about to leave. Time to end this post. I think I've done enough whining anyway... Back to work... feeling really drowsy... and my nose is running / blocked. What a week.
Friday, April 22, 2005
The Blower's Daughter by Damien Rice
The Blower's Daughter
- Damien Rice
And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is (he has)
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off (-?) you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off (-?) you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
And so it is (he has)
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is (he has)
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off (-?) you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off (-?) you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to(?)
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off (-?) you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off (-?) you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new
I just watched the movie 'Closer'. And Patrick Marber is so accurate in the telling of love. And Mike Nichols made it so real. The story tells of how a person will alwasy be searching for someone better even they're already with someone at that particular time. And what Natalie Portman's character said is so true. There's always a moment before you decide to fall in love. Either you resist it or you fall into it. There's always a choice. People are always not happy even though they've already found someone. There's always the search for someone better. And how the person you love can make you love him so much and need him so much and at the end, he finds someone and falls in love with her because she doesn't need him. And they don't see the irony of the whole thing. And how people can't generally be happy with what they have. Or they feel they don't deserve to be happy. Coz then if they are, then can't be depressed since we are all basically depressive. And so if they find themselves in a state where they're happy, they'll immediately set out to find a situation where they can be unhappy again as they feel they don't deserve that happiness. And how the person that you love can be lying to you and you will never find out unless by some chance coincidence. That they can be with you for years and years but never reveal their true self. And how perverse we can be by torturing ourselves just to hear the sad gory details. And how the truth always hurts and yet we insist on it.
And still we search for it. We yearn for it. We pine for it. We long for it. Even though we know that when we eventually find it, we'd still keep on looking.
- If you believe in love at first sight, then you'll never stop looking. -
- Damien Rice
And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is (he has)
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off (-?) you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off (-?) you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
And so it is (he has)
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is (he has)
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off (-?) you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off (-?) you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to(?)
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off (-?) you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off (-?) you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new
I just watched the movie 'Closer'. And Patrick Marber is so accurate in the telling of love. And Mike Nichols made it so real. The story tells of how a person will alwasy be searching for someone better even they're already with someone at that particular time. And what Natalie Portman's character said is so true. There's always a moment before you decide to fall in love. Either you resist it or you fall into it. There's always a choice. People are always not happy even though they've already found someone. There's always the search for someone better. And how the person you love can make you love him so much and need him so much and at the end, he finds someone and falls in love with her because she doesn't need him. And they don't see the irony of the whole thing. And how people can't generally be happy with what they have. Or they feel they don't deserve to be happy. Coz then if they are, then can't be depressed since we are all basically depressive. And so if they find themselves in a state where they're happy, they'll immediately set out to find a situation where they can be unhappy again as they feel they don't deserve that happiness. And how the person that you love can be lying to you and you will never find out unless by some chance coincidence. That they can be with you for years and years but never reveal their true self. And how perverse we can be by torturing ourselves just to hear the sad gory details. And how the truth always hurts and yet we insist on it.
And still we search for it. We yearn for it. We pine for it. We long for it. Even though we know that when we eventually find it, we'd still keep on looking.
- If you believe in love at first sight, then you'll never stop looking. -
My Lil god-son
I never liked new born babies. NOt until last week when I went to visit my close friend's son. Naturally we've been made the god-mothers who will spoil the boy silly. Holding the 2 week old boy just felt so right. Felt so natural in my arms.
But that doesn't mean that I'm ready to have one of my own just yet!
Maternal instincts at work.
Who could resist a face like that?
Isn't he just adorable?
But that doesn't mean that I'm ready to have one of my own just yet!
Maternal instincts at work.
Who could resist a face like that?
Isn't he just adorable?
Monday, April 18, 2005
In my office...
Woo Hoo... I'm blogging from my office! What a thrill... I know, I know... sound like some 'jakun' but hey, never had this kind of privilage before!
Anyway, second day on the job. Boss ain't here yet. Met her son, Miles last night. Cute kid. Very hyper. Feeling a bit bored coz there's no one here!!! I'm the only one on the whole damn floor!!! And my office feels like an aquarium. There's this glass wall so everyone can look inside and vice versa and since i'm currently the only one in here, I feel like a goldfish.
I'm bored... Hmm... i wonder if i can 'curi-curi' install Yahoo or MSN messenger. Oh yeah, we can't access our private email accounts from here. Previously it was allowed but then the server kept getting attacked by viruses (thanks to some ppl who simply opened files from unknown ppl) so now that privilage has been taken away. Ish. Came onboard just a little too late.
Let's see what time my boss will come in. Got some filing to do for her. She's almost as messy as I am!!! And I have to clean up and organise stuff for her when I can't even organise myself :) How ironic.
Hele signing off... from my 'aquarium' :)
Anyway, second day on the job. Boss ain't here yet. Met her son, Miles last night. Cute kid. Very hyper. Feeling a bit bored coz there's no one here!!! I'm the only one on the whole damn floor!!! And my office feels like an aquarium. There's this glass wall so everyone can look inside and vice versa and since i'm currently the only one in here, I feel like a goldfish.
I'm bored... Hmm... i wonder if i can 'curi-curi' install Yahoo or MSN messenger. Oh yeah, we can't access our private email accounts from here. Previously it was allowed but then the server kept getting attacked by viruses (thanks to some ppl who simply opened files from unknown ppl) so now that privilage has been taken away. Ish. Came onboard just a little too late.
Let's see what time my boss will come in. Got some filing to do for her. She's almost as messy as I am!!! And I have to clean up and organise stuff for her when I can't even organise myself :) How ironic.
Hele signing off... from my 'aquarium' :)
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
P.A.?
I am so excited. I start my new position on Monday and I will be working from 9 am to 6 pm! No more vampire hours!!! And i am going to be someone's Personal Assistant. Imagine... I will be managing someone's life!
My new boss is this really cool lady from the States. She has really high expectations from me and I hope i can live up to them. And guess what her name is? It's Halina. So can you just imagine the confusion we'll cause? Everyone who calls will be so confused :)
Anyway, I start on Monday... hope all goes well!!!
My new boss is this really cool lady from the States. She has really high expectations from me and I hope i can live up to them. And guess what her name is? It's Halina. So can you just imagine the confusion we'll cause? Everyone who calls will be so confused :)
Anyway, I start on Monday... hope all goes well!!!
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Finally...
I got offered a job. Not much of a salary jump but still more than what i'm getting now. And at least i'll be learning new things and actually be doing something related to my degree. And if all goes well, could even turn to be a chartered accountant. We'll see....
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Eh?
That's exactly how i feel like right now. I'm not sure what the heck is going on around me. These past few days have been like a blur to me. CAN'T WAIT TO GO LANGKAWI ON SATURDAY!!!
How does it feel like to be hit on by your boss? Well, i know the feelign now! Terribly terribly embarassing since it was done in front of a whole bunch of ppl. Ish...
LANGKAWI... HERE I COME!!!
How does it feel like to be hit on by your boss? Well, i know the feelign now! Terribly terribly embarassing since it was done in front of a whole bunch of ppl. Ish...
LANGKAWI... HERE I COME!!!
Monday, December 27, 2004
I was just reading through my past blogs and realised how totally unconnected they are. They're really more like one-page entries of how i felt when i wrote what i wrote. And that is just so like me. Impulsive and emotional. Happy one day, then down the next. Anyone who would have read my blog would probably this girl is some sort of a psycho! Got to learn to take control of my emotions. I'm 23 going on 24 and i still act like a spoiled child sometimes.
Christmas has come and gone. He got me a gift. :) He was so clumsy about the whole thing, it was just hilarious. And sweet. Naturally i also got him something. Which left a gaping hole in my pocket. And guess what? I lost my phone. So now i'm handphone-less. Never realised how much i depended on my phone on so many things. Feel so lost and disconnected right now. There goes another hole burnt in the pocket. Think i left the phone in my VP's house but then again, if it was there, someone would have found it by now. But i seriously can't imagine anyone taking the phone. Not as if it was some hi-tech state of the art phone. Oh well... just one of those things you never can tell.
End of the year is coming. And i'll be ushering in the New Year in the office. Whoopee-Doo.
I want progression. I want change. Let's hope the new year brings all that.
Happy new year.
Christmas has come and gone. He got me a gift. :) He was so clumsy about the whole thing, it was just hilarious. And sweet. Naturally i also got him something. Which left a gaping hole in my pocket. And guess what? I lost my phone. So now i'm handphone-less. Never realised how much i depended on my phone on so many things. Feel so lost and disconnected right now. There goes another hole burnt in the pocket. Think i left the phone in my VP's house but then again, if it was there, someone would have found it by now. But i seriously can't imagine anyone taking the phone. Not as if it was some hi-tech state of the art phone. Oh well... just one of those things you never can tell.
End of the year is coming. And i'll be ushering in the New Year in the office. Whoopee-Doo.
I want progression. I want change. Let's hope the new year brings all that.
Happy new year.
Saturday, December 11, 2004
Tired
I'm tired of all this.
I've cried so much over the past two days, it's enough to fill a dam.
I've got so much heartache over the past two days, it's amazing my heart is still beating.
I just can't do this.
I just can't.
What do i do now?
I think i need a break from all this.
I think i need a break from him.
I've cried so much over the past two days, it's enough to fill a dam.
I've got so much heartache over the past two days, it's amazing my heart is still beating.
I just can't do this.
I just can't.
What do i do now?
I think i need a break from all this.
I think i need a break from him.
Monday, December 06, 2004
Hmm... been a pretty long time since i last blogged. Few things have changed. Went home last weekend and was really glad to see improvement in my dad's condition. He's gone back to work. Which is a really good sign. And he's got more movement in his legs. Let's just pray and hope that things continue improving.
I've got a new car now. And the payments are killing me. Sigh... circumstances called for me to have it. Let's hope i get a real big break in my career pretty soon.
Been reading bout Worlds and i miss the tourneys so much. The thrill of being in a tournament. The energy level of the whole thing. How adrenaline just pumps thru everyone and everyone's hyper and happy. Sigh... and i miss all the planning and hard work we put in for australs even though it was grueling. Reading the worlds website and the venues make me wish i was a part of it. Oh well... writing about how much i miss it all aint' gonna change a god damn thing. Anyway, i've 2 more days of leave... so will probably crash some socials :)
Wanna meet up with the sistas this sat for the Star Wars thingy but unfortunately got a friend's b'day party which i can't miss. Ish.
I've got a new car now. And the payments are killing me. Sigh... circumstances called for me to have it. Let's hope i get a real big break in my career pretty soon.
Been reading bout Worlds and i miss the tourneys so much. The thrill of being in a tournament. The energy level of the whole thing. How adrenaline just pumps thru everyone and everyone's hyper and happy. Sigh... and i miss all the planning and hard work we put in for australs even though it was grueling. Reading the worlds website and the venues make me wish i was a part of it. Oh well... writing about how much i miss it all aint' gonna change a god damn thing. Anyway, i've 2 more days of leave... so will probably crash some socials :)
Wanna meet up with the sistas this sat for the Star Wars thingy but unfortunately got a friend's b'day party which i can't miss. Ish.
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Sigh...
Even though it's been months since he told me that we can't be friends anymore, it still hurts. Especially now. I emailed him about my dad coz i thought 'Well, he WAS pretty chummy with my dad when we were together'. And it hurts to not even get a reply from him. Am i really such a threat to his girlfriend that he can't even reply my email about my dad? And am i STILL a so called threat to their relationship? I guess i expected a reply from him considering how serious my dad's condition is. But nothing. Not even a single message. Jeebers! I mean, c'mon... grow up! Plus... i was just browsing through my Friendster and i realised that this girl who was my junior in school and who previously was in my list, is suddenly gone. And i remember that this girl and his girlfriend are good buddies. Ish. The more i think and rant about, the more irritated and cheesed off i get. And hurt too.
Things at home are okay i guess. Dad's coming home this saturday. At least i'll still be around. Can help out, you know. Sigh... a lot of adjustments will have to be made.
Things at home are okay i guess. Dad's coming home this saturday. At least i'll still be around. Can help out, you know. Sigh... a lot of adjustments will have to be made.
Monday, October 25, 2004
Tick Tock...
Why does time sometimes move so slowly and sometimes just zooms past you? Time time... doesn't everyone want more of that?
Friday, October 22, 2004
Well, I've been back home for nearly a week now. And my dad's been in the hospital for more than a week. At least i can breathe a sigh of relief and say that his health is okay. Except for the fact that he's paralysed from the waist down. Ie he can't use both his legs. But he IS slowly regaining his strength back. But the chances of him being able to stand and walk again are slim short of a miracle. And believe me, we're all praying for that miracle. And my sis and brother in law's presence is also very reassuring.
I just wanna say thanks to all my friends and colleagues who have been very supportive to have called or texted me. Thank you very much for all your prayers.
I just wanna say thanks to all my friends and colleagues who have been very supportive to have called or texted me. Thank you very much for all your prayers.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
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