Tortured hearts and souls. That seems to be the theme over the past weekend. Jilted lovers who can't get over their love. Blogging about their pain to the world. Watching a movie about relationships, emotions and needs. Sigh... so who said love is enough to keep us alive? What about the possibility of falling OUT of love? If you can fall IN, you can always climb back out. And like I've once quoted on a previous post from a movie:

If you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking.

Chatting about that movie with someone who relates to it was so enlightening. Prior to that, I've only watched it with V who can be as shallow as a teaspoon at times. And he didnt' like the movie. I found it so profound and he didn't feel a thing. Differences in opinions...

Sometimes I miss having argumental conversations about stuff debates are about. Politics, environment, culture etc. I mean, the end of my university life revolved so much around debates. You're surrounded by smart people (some of them, anyway) and the conversations that go on force you into a situation where you HAVE to read and keep up. If not, you just end up sounding really stupid AND feeling stupid. I miss having someone to 'debate' with or at least bounce off ideas and arguments and rebutting one's opinions. Like I said before, teaspoon. Okay okay... not so bad. I'm just being biased and judgemental. We DO talk about stuff. And when we talk about these kind of things, we end up fighting. Our opinions are just so different. And work just takes up so much time. Stuff we talk about revolves around work so much. It's annoying at times. I think 80% of our conversation is about work issues or people at work. The other 20% would be about AOB - any other business. I don't know how this change in jobs will affect us. As it is, now that we're on different timing but still in the same company, there's kind of a strain on our relationship. We don't have time to see each other except on weekends. And we need weekends to see our friends too. So what now? I think it's been about 2 weeks since I last spent time with him. Some people might not think that's a long period of time but hey, when you're working in the same company and living in the same vincinity, that's long.

Imagination & fantasies...

Was at work till really late last night. If you ask me what I was doing, I really can't tell you. I just found out some feedback on me and being professional last night and I'm really annoyed. Not at the person who gave the feedback but at the person whom caused this whole thing in the first place. SHE was the one who started to talk to me about the issue and yes, I should brought her outside but it just didn't cross my mind. And she was happily talking about it and asking me questions. Damn. I feel so irritated! Anyway, nothing I can do... just take it in good stride and learn from it.

On another note, as I was in the office late, my mind just started wandering and I wasn't really concentrating on my work. Was just thinking of my move to another company, how it would be like, will I move up the corporate ladder there etc. Being in the consulting world, I suppose, would give me a better chance of moving up. And having that company in my resume would DEFINITELY help. At least according to a lot of people I've spoken to. So anyway, as usual, I started to think of how things might be in the future... and this is the picture that came to mind:

I'm decked out in a top notch suit, with a laptop bag strung across one shoulder, a trendy handphone in one hand, fashionable glasses perched atop my head, sipping latte at a hip sidewalk cafe and organising my meetings on my Personal Digital Assistant.

How's that for a great mental picture of how I'd like to be? Let's hope things work out and that picture will no longer just be in my head! I'm such a typical yuppie. I DO want the latest handphone model. I DO want a cool laptop. I DO want an iPod mini. I DO want trendy clothes and high class power suits and shoes. I DO want to drive a nice car. I DO want to live in a nice house or posh condo where you need to register the names of your visitors before the guards will let them in. On top of that, I want my close friends around me. I want my darling to be there next to me. I want my family to be proud of me.

Think I can have all of the above? Why not work for it?

P. S. I really do want an iPod mini. Was surfing the net last night and it's so cool!!! Anyone care to donate about RM 999 to me and my iPod cause?

Just when I thought everything was fine and dandy and I'm going to be a PA for a while. Looks like things can change with just one phone call. And that call came last week, on a Friday. Totally unexpected. Totally off my radar screen. Now... time for change again. From one company with 4 letters to another with 4 letters as well.
Thank goodness my boss is so supportive. She was the one who helped me make my decision. Imagine going to your new boss and telling her that you've been offered another job. And imagine your boss helping you sketch out your goals and what you want to achieve. Clearer career path to achieve my goals. That's where I'm headed for.
Everyone is going to be so shocked. Apparently I set the record. The fastest to leave after promotion :) Got to leave in good terms though. And that's where my boss is going to help me too. Design an exit strategy where I will be on good terms with everyone and so that I can always say I've got contacts here. Got to build my network too! After all, that's what consulting is about. How many people you know and can influence. And how fat my address book is.
Anyway, if I don't like it, I can always turn to becoming a PA since I've got the experience :)

Sleepy...

It's Friday morning... the weather is just so perfect for sleeping. It's been drizzly, cloudy and I can just imagine myself under the blanket snoozing away. Either that or reading a book then snoozing away. But no.... where am i? At work. And I'm just too lazy to start off anything yet. Waiting for my boss to go to a meeting at 11 am so that I can eat my breakfast and read a magazine or something. Talk about loafing off!!!

Well, I've shifted into my new place. The place is really nice. The whole apartment block has a very cosy homey feeling to it coz it's very green. And it's next to a hill with monkeys! Can you believe it... monkeys in the middle of a towney area! Housemates are pretty cool too. But my room is still in such a mess!!! Haven't got a cupboard yet... so my clothes are still in bags. Don't know where to put my dvds... got too much of them. Don't know where to put my books... got a fair amount of them. But at least half of my room looks decent. The half where i've set up my computer and bed. Oh well, going to IKEA this evening (if i can get off early) to get my cupboard and whatever else i think is necessary (and since we're talking about me, i might end up buying the whole store!).

Another thing i'm looking forward to is hearing from KPMG. Not going to say much about it yet but let's just hope and pray that i'm accepted. And that what they will offer me is substantial enough for me to accept. We'll see...

My god-son is one month old!!! And when i go back next weekend he's going to be one and half months old. Cool. Time flies doens't it? Just felt like it was last week when my friend texted me to tell me that she's in labour.

On another note, Tubs and Annie are flying high on their trip. I'm so envious. I could have been there with them now. But then so many things happened prior to this trip that I just couldn't drop everything and went off. I put a curse on committments. Especially job committments. How nice if I could just drop everything and disappear for a whole month. A whole month of travelling and relaxing and eating. Mmmm... sounds really good.

I need a vacation!!! I know i just got back from one about a month ago but i need another one now!!! Nothing fancy.. maybe just a weekend getaway with a few friends... maybe a steamboat dinner somewhere cooling... Ish... Somebody plan something please!!! I would plan something if I had time and if I were the type to plan something.

Whoops, boss's visitor is just about to leave. Time to end this post. I think I've done enough whining anyway... Back to work... feeling really drowsy... and my nose is running / blocked. What a week.